EEEEEEKKKK!!!

Oh please oh please oh pleae oh please lord let us get this PCS to Virginia....oh please oh please oh pleaseeeeeeee!!! 4 years in Virginia in an actual house, 30 minutes from DC....oh please oh pleaseeeeeeeee!!!

Okay, so I can't remember the place, but my husband volunteered us to PCS to somewhere in Virginia, 45 minutes from where we are now and I'm praying super hard that we get it. I want to move soooo bad! We won't be on an actual military base.....GAH I JUST WANNA GET OFF THIS BASE AND OUT OF THIS BAD AREA!!!

I'm so giddy with excitement...

And also....I get to travel home to NC =D We're going back to have the car inspected, so I'll be in my hometown for a few days!

Early Morning Foulness

Can I quit? No? Well darn! I've got therapy this morning at 9, and I really.....really.....REALLY don't want to go. I'm exhausted, ill at ease, a little weepy...Okay, maybe I do need to go =/ It's 7:44am and therapy is at 9, so I've got a few things to take care of before then (Like showering...and brushing my teeth...and finding clothes that fit....and letting the puppies out to pee....One of which is standing right beside me with her nose up on the keyboard...). Great fun. I'd rather sit here all day and complain that I'm tired...
Mean thoughts: (And yes, I know this is coming way out of left field, please don't judge me too harshly). I woke up, took my husband to work ( =D Drove the sports car in my PJs... totally awesome!) and then came back to fetch breakfast. And I'm sure I'm not alone in the fact that I logged on to facebook while enjoying my cereal! Anyway, I noticed that my 'friend' (Long story...she's more like an enemy...I'm just going to leave it at that instead of boring you with the details of teenage squabbles) had posted a status update containing the phrase "I WILL be getting back in to shape this year!" and the first thing that popped into my head was?...I'm so ashamed....it's mean..."Shape? Round? You've never had a shape other than round! What do you mean 'Get back in to shape'?" Needless to say, I recognized the bitch horns had decided to start showing. Of COURSE I didn't actually type a response to her (I'm not heartless). And then I realized "Hey, that's a bit of an unbalanced thought there....check it." So now I'm sitting here breaking down the thought and what not like I was taught to do in...oh wait...therapy >_>. Anyway, what I've come up with so far is....I'm just jealous that shes younger than me and has a kid. The more balanced thought: Everyone has a right to try and get in shape. Stop being a biatch =P

I really should get off the internet...hrmmm.....

Later!! x~Jessica

A recipe!

Tonight was another "Hungry Girl" meal night! Because my husband went out to eat, I decided 'Hey, that doesn't mean I have to give up on the meal I'd planned to cook'! So I just went on ahead and made a "Hola Breakfast Tostada"....and let me tell ya, it was WONDERFUL. The recipe bellow came straight out of the Hungry Girl "300 under 300" book :D

Ingredients:
1 medium/large high fiber tortilla(About 110 calories)
1/4 cup diced red and green bell peppers
2 tablespoons diced onion
1/2 cup fat free liquid egg substitute

1 tablespoon precooked real crumbled bacon
2 tablespoons shredded fat free cheddar cheese

Optional: Hot sauce, fat free sour cream, salsa

Directions:
Preheat oven to 375*
Place tortilla on a baking sheet sprayed with nonstick spray. Bake in the oven until slightly crispy, about 5 minutes per side. Transfer to a plate and set aside. 

Bring a large skillet sprayed with nonstick spray to medium high heat on the stove. Add peppers and onion and, stirring occasionally, cook until slightly softened, about 3 minutes.
Add egg substitute and bacon to the skillet. If you like, add a few dashes of hot sauce. Scramble until egg substitute is fully cooked, about 3 minutes.
Top the baked tortilla with scrambled egg mixture and sprinkle with cheese. If you like, add optional toppings.

Very quick and easy with minimal clean up! I haven't added my total calories for this meal, so I can't really insert it here, and because I haven't replace my camera I can't provide a picture =(

RAWR -or- Sunday Aggravation

Several hours back, my husband left to go watch the new Batman movie with friends. I decided to not go, thinking he'd be back shortly to spend the rest of the day with me (Our usual Sunday tradition). I thought 'Hey, you had a BPD breakdown yesterday, why not let the fella go out and have a guys night?!'. Turns out, after the movie (which was the ONLY thing we agreed he was to do) James and his friends went to eat. And NOW, instead of spending time with me, he's bringing his friends back HERE to play Dungeons and Dragons. I'm so irritated. I want to start screaming and throw a tantrum because things aren't going my way and I'm feeling neglected. I'll end up spending the rest of the night upstairs in the bedroom just so I don't lose what little self control I have. I don't understand why I'm reacting to strongly to this situation, but I am...

Blogilates

Yay for trying something new today =) Rather than rely strictly on the Gorilla Workout App, I decided to give Blogilates a try and I found it....difficult, yet satisfying.
In 45 minutes, I completed:
http://blogilates.com/stretching
http://blogilates.com/butt (Butt Blaster video, 25 minutes)
http://blogilates.com/stretching (Yes, a second time, as a cool down)
For this set, I burnt 278 calories, and learned that I REALLY need to clean the bedroom floor....it's caked in dog hair and now so am I!

I seriously advise giving www.blogilates.com a look!

Second Post of the Day -or- PHEW!

For those of you that stumble across this post, let me hurry up and say that today was my first day heading back to the gym after several months of being sedentary. Like most people, my new years resolution was to lose a chunk of weight...and instead I just ended up giving up and packing more on before the first month of the new year had passed. After two days of using www.myfitnesspal.com to start my diet, I FINALLY worked up the courage to hit the small gym on base (We have three, two of which are currently up and functional)...and I had the WHOLE thing to myself for the duration of my workout.

Using my Polar FT7 heart rate monitor (Polar FT7 Womens Gold Heart Rate And Fitness Monitor - 90036747), I did the first day of Couch to 5k, using an ipod app. 30 minutes of huffing and puffing; Brisk 5 minute warm-up walk....then alternating 1 minute of jogging and 1 1/2 minutes of walking for a total of 20 minutes before the cool down walk. I'm whooped! I seriously don't think I've sweat quite that much in my entire life without ending up in the ER!

I also used a second ipod app, "Gorilla Workout", to finish up my workout routine for the day.  4 rounds of 8 squats, 4 lunges, and 10 modified pushups. My body aches a little bit, but I feel all around GREAT.

I think it's time for me to down some more water, snack and get a shower....I'm caked in sweat...Seriously. I can feel the dried sweat on my skin. It's so nasty!

=) To cardio everyday or not to cardio every day? What do you think? Leave me a comment and let me know! I'm thinking of starting to follow the wonderful Blogilates lady, Casey, to see what I can do to my chunky monkey body!

In the fridge -Or- A little slice of happiness?

It's official. This week marks week 1 of the great weight loss adventure! I've been copying recipes out of "Hungry Girl" & counting calories and water in take like a mad woman. I spent an hour in the kitchen cutting up vegetables to stuff in mason jars; this way, they are on hand, already prepped and ready for snacking or cooking. Along with all of this came a shocking surprise: Last night, after preparing a salad and sitting down to eat, my husband voiced a comment that made my heart happy; He said, "This is really good. Ya' know, I'm actually excited about this whole weight loss thing. Hungry Girl feeds hungry guys too!". I swear I about had a heart attack! Never in my life did I expect to hear him utter anything close to those words. And for him to actually LIKE the food I've been preparing?! Just....WOW. It was a total confidence booster. Nothing quite like having a true partner on board for the whole weight loss thing!

That's the good news. The bad? I haven't been sleeping, so there hasn't been any exercise in my life this week, like there should be. I'm so exhausted you guys! Even taking my ambien hasn't helped! I don't know what's going on with this! Maybe I just need to force my body into a state of over exhaustion and just stay up for 24 hours so that I pass out tomorrow? I don't know what to do!!!

To Be Good or...

To be greedy? A good wife should share with her husband, right? ...But I don't want to! Let me explain; last weekend, an electrical storm struck base (Pun not intended). Because the outlets in base housing are not grounded (A fact that we didn't know), our surge protector took one heck of a hit; Xbox, router, modem and my husbands laptop power supply all ended up fried. After replacing the router (A whopping 120$), we just don't have the money to replace James's power supply. So naturally, he wants to share my computer. He gets two hours, I get two hours. Now, I'm sure this sounds reasonable. Except...I'm using my computer and don't much feel like giving it up just because he wants to play a video game (We're competing to see who levels faster and generally does better). It's not my fault his power supply got fried (He never unplugs his computer), so why should I take a chunk of what I view as punishment just so he can enjoy himself? Am I not allowed to have fun too?

Naturally, my husband is sulking...And it's actually making me pretty mad, to be honest. The more childish he acts, the less inclined I am to share with him. I suppose I should let the little baby have his turn, just to pacify him, but I also give up things I want/need so that he can get his R/C helicopters, fireworks, etc. He buys new clothes, I go to the Airmans attic and look for free stuff....But I digress (again). I'm being greedy and selfish. I know it's wrong but goodness...It's like he expects me to just roll over and let him take my computer from me.

A Shocking Development

Last night was the first evening I've cooked dinner in a few weeks (-_- I fail so hard at being a house wife sometimes) what with being on vacation and having little to no motivation. Yesterday was ALSO the first official day of my new diet. So I decided to crack open a "Hungry Girl" cookbook and set to work...

And you know what? The meal turned out REALLY well. Like...I wanted to make it again today. What I made was the "Cheesy Burger Skillet", except I ended up replacing the meatless burger with turkey burger, because our commissary isn't too well stocked on healthy options (and they wonder why their soldiers are overweight...). The meal was a whopping 439 calories. That's right. Less than 500 calories. I had enough leftover to go and eat ice cream! YAY!

Today is another day, though, and I find myself struggling. I'm so hungry...I want to eat everything, and sadly there isn't much in the house that won't put me over my calorie allotment. I need NOMS. >_<

Back =)

It's so weird....I feel like my personality has done a bit of a 180 since vacation. I'm happy...HAPPY. That's so freakin' weird for me to be able to say. Without the help of medications, I actually feel BETTER. I really hope this isn't just an episode....that it lasts =)

Tuesday, I attended a pre-diabetes clinic. The instructors and group were all very nice; almost everyone has some serious age on me though! As of now, I'm on a 1200 calorie diet to see if I can't get some of this weight off. I'm five foot six and 172 pounds.... (  .  )    ) . (   I'm going to start trying to cook more, so there are bound to be more recipes here soon!

In other news, the husband and I were able to purchase a California King pillow top mattress, waterproof pillowtop cover, bed frame and boxspring for right at 500$. The bed is less than 2 1/2 years old. It's AMAZING. SO big and comfy. It's so easy to fall asleep!

=D Time for me to get off here (for now). I need to tidy the house then wake the husband up and take him back to work. I've got therapy today...and I'm probably in a bit of trouble because I didn't do any of my homework....O_0 Whoops.

Well I'll Be!

A few days ago, my husband and I returned to our hometown on vacation. And we've discovered that instead of playing different games...we enjoy playing the same one. And now we have something to do together and another topic to openly discuss =)