Plan of Attack

Surprisingly, it was an 'early' morning for me. Instead of rolling out of the bed at 11pm, I was up with my husband at around 6, making a mad dash to go pick a friend up from the airport (his deployment was CANCELED!!! =D ). Now I'm starting to feel a bit of that funk that comes along around this time every day. So to combat the blues and hopefully avoid becoming manic, I've already started preparing dinner for tonight (A crock-pot recipe). After I clean up the prep-work mess, I'd LIKE to have Subway (But I know the husband won't allow that =/) so I'll probably end up making something to nom.

Om Nom Noms #2

 I bring to you....tonight's dinner! Pizza quesadillas! I selected relatively cheap product to make this meal, mostly because I needed to stay under a 95$ budget for the week. As you can see, there is very little required to make this meal =)

 Step one: >>>Take a tortilla and lightly (I went a bit heavy handed...) cover it in marina sauce. Nothing special needed!

 <<<<Step two: CHEESE! Mozzarella was my cheese of choice, but feel free to use whatever kind you want! I strongly suggest shredded cheese, because I feel like it melts better...

 Step Three:>>> Pepperoni! yum yum!

 <<<<Step four: Add the top, lightly sauced tortilla!

Step five:>>> Cook! I used my little grill on medium heat. Note: If you over sauce, it WILL leak out and it WILL sling up on to you just like bacon grease!

 <<<This is the finished product...I was too impatient to eat to let the tortilla crisp up =\ But they still turned out great! Once again, I was shocked to have another kitchen success!

Addition: Heat up a little extra marina sauce for dipping =)

Yuck

So today I wanted to share this with you. See that disaster? That is all the laundry that I've left un-done for the past several weeks. My 'give-a-damn' was jammed in the off position, but with some help from both my husband and my therapist, I've managed to switch it back on. So today I'm going to spend the day curled up on the couch, watching Doctor Who between loads of ...that...evil mess.

I'd also like to inform the general reading public that I finally had a manic-break down this morning after not being able to fall asleep. 48 hours of being awake sorta sucks and I finally lost my temper and started punching the wall. It took a good 45 minutes for me to reign myself back in. And of course my being awake a fussy effected the hubs..my noise, tossing and turning and general bad mood woke him. And in the end, karma bit my in the rump; Something, and I'm almost certain it was my birth-control, made me sick to my stomach. I'll just say...that I ended up hugging the toilet and leave it at that. Anyway, I ended up falling asleep AFTER James left for work, and not getting out of the bed until he came back on lunch-break. Ugh. Now I'm up, on my feet and feeling much better!

Om nom nom!

Tonight's dinner was one of those 'just wing it' meals where I try my hand at randomly throwing something together rather than following a recipe. This is only the third time I've cooked in three months (From lack of motivation/being manic). Tyson individually packaged (frozen) chicken breasts, thawed (of course) and simmered in a butter/milk base, with a mix of black pepper, cajun seasoning, hot shot, ground mustard, garlic powder and onion powder thrown on (eyeballed out of a teaspoon for each one). Fears of it being over-powering were squashed upon my husbands first bite. It is anything but bland, though! I must confess that I cheated with the green beans; they came out of a microwaveable steamer bad (after being cooked) and were added into the pot with the blackeyed peas and a bullion cube. Little under 40 minutes for total cook time (I cooked the chicken slowly) and less than five minutes for it to vanish from the plates.

Beware of time jumps and randomness...

Because this post is going to be full of them. It's going to be VERY disjointed...and I'm sorry for that.

It's around 3:09 pm...and I'm back at the computer. Yet again, I found myself on facebook, going over everything that had been posted over the last little bit of time. And during my little jaunt onto my favorite social-networking site, I decided to update my status. In the densely worded update, I informed my 160 friends/family that I'm currently feeling guilty over not having a job, and that I wish to become employed again. The cold hard fact though is that I will be unsuccessful; I need a part-time employer that is willing to work around my hectic therapy schedule. I'm currently on suicide-watch (No shutting myself in the bathroom, therapy every week, having to be medicated by my husband because I can't be trusted with pills) and that makes this even harder. I'm starting to stress as we speak and my mood is taking a nose dive. Luckily, with the skills I've been learning in therapy, I haven't yet reached a manic state, nor have I lost control and started bawling/self-harming. I WISH I could find a job that would allow me to work from home. That..in itself, would be the most ideal. AAAAAAA! I feel like ripping my hair out. And the thing is...I don't HAVE to work. My husband would like for me to get a job, and it would help a great deal, but his pay supports us very easily. And I'd only be working for a year (My husband and I plan on having a baby next year, and I'll be a stay at home mom). 

Now that I've sat here and vented, I think it's time I get back to cleaning...I haven't even finished tidying up, let alone starting the laundry. It's going to be a LONG night for me. I'm sure to work on this post again later, perhaps after dinner or if/when I start losing control. 

3:33 pm...Guess what? I told you I was going to leave my computer, and I haven't. Yeesh! I've started looking up "AdSense" and whatnot, and I'm seriously thinking about using it (Eventually). I'm also sitting here gazing at one of the cutest faces in the world (Xaphan, who is flopped at my feet, napping the day away). 

The Time Gap!

It's been quite a while since the last time I posted here. A few months, actually. And I'd fill you in RIGHT NOW on everything that has been going on, but that would take quite a while, and I'd have nothing to write about later!

 I started a Wordpress blog yesterday, and after a bit of research, I've decided it was more worth my time to come back to blogspot, so here I am, sitting at my kitchen table, writing for the rest of the world to see! My goal is to now write everyday, even multiple times a day to touch base on my day to day life, recipes that I've prepared (reviews on said noms and pictures), and...other stuff. Yea. Other stuff.

Anyway, here are a few things I feel like you need to know: We now have a second fur-baby: Another German Shepherd by the name of Xaphan. He is five months old, and our sweet Leia is now 9 months old. Also, I've been going to therapy...so you'll be hearing a lot about that and the things that I learn while in 'treatment'. I'm also going to try and post a little about fitness, nutrition and the things I learn while trying to undergo some major weightloss and a life-transition.

Oh my!

It's been a while since I've posted...so...
Hello again! It's officially 2012! January second marked five years since my husband and I became a couple!

My New Years resolutions are: 1. Lose weight & get in shape 2. Train the puppy! 3. Seek help for mental health 4. Take better care of the house 5. Learn how to cook 6. Be a better wife. 7. Attempt to start college courses!

=) I have a pretty decent trip home to North Carolina...Christmas was great, and so was New Years, but in all honesty....for as much as I didn't want to leave my home town...I'm sorta happy to be back in my own house in Maryland. I still have un-packing and cleaning to do, so I suppose I should get my rump out of the computer chair!